One day at a time without Roisin

So hard to imagine that Roisin is really gone forever from this place. I know I will see her again. I know she'll be greeting me when God calls me home but for now I am just not myself without her. I can't think straight. I almost drove up a one way street. I shopped at Costco & forgot to put all my items on the belt ... just left everything in the cart while I stood there waiting to pay & I didn't understand why the cashier was explaining to me that "usually the guests puts the smaller items up on the belt" As she was saying it I didn't even understand what she was talking about & then I got it. I told her that my sister-in-law had just died & I just broke down in tears. Thankfully, she was very kind & understanding!

Life will just never be the same. I know I will get back to being "me" but for now I am really at a loss imagining life without her & especially, life for my nieces without their wonderful mother. I get overwhelmed thinking about all the years ahead of these girls without their mom. I can't keep worrying about tomorrow & all the "what if" scenarios for the girls. Today I was reminded of what Jesus said, "Do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself." I needed that reminder.

God is my refuge & help for all things and through Him I will get through this season one day at a time. I am so thankful that the Lord understands my sorrow & grief....and that He loves & cares for my nieces much more than I.